The completely unfiltered diary of a 23-year-old (week 54)
I woke up this morning with a massive headache. Ten out of ten on the Richter scale. (I just googled to check if the scale actually goes up to 10, and it does.)
Ok, I’m exaggerating. It wasn’t that bad. I did for a second worry that I might’ve gotten COVID, but then I took my temperature and there was no fever.
I did spend the whole morning sleeping though. There was no way I could look at a screen. Thankfully, the headache got much better after sleeping like a pig the whole morning. But it also means I’m a bit behind on work, and might actually have to make up for it by working over the weekend… Oh well. Slacked off a little too hard.
I spent my night practicing dance. It’s like a mix between shuffling and electro swing — I’m not sophisticated enough to know the difference. It was hella fun though, and I’m so glad the headache is completely gone now. In essence, the day ended really differently from how it started out.
Must be the exercise endorphins. Also, this shuffling thing is really fantastic exercise. On normal days, if I don’t leave the house, it’s almost impossible to walk 10,000 steps. I actually hit it today with all the dance practice. It’s a miracle.
Anyway.
Met Gia yesterday and it was all good. Sounds like she’s a little stressed out/anxious. I guess it’s normal pre-trip jitters. Can’t believe she’s leaving so soon. Hopefully everything goes smoothly (I’m sure it will).
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My knees and calves are aching from the dancing. Man, I’m getting old.
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Met Kay today and it was really nice. Chill. Comfortable. Yea, comfortable.
She sounds a little disheartened about work. Nothing too bad, but it’s the first time she’s really said something negative about her work. So, reminder to self: gotta watch out for that and see if it gets worse.
Lol, sounds like a doctor tracking a patient’s symptoms. I’m grossly overestimating my importance here.
We went pretty hard at the gym, and it felt pretty damn good. Also met a really old acquaintance (who was there alone). And it made me realize that as myself, seeing someone I know at the gym alone, I don’t really care at all. As in, I don’t judge the person at all. There’s no oh, this person has no friends or anything like that. It’s really just, whoa, so cool to meet this person here! And nice, they’re going hard.
I guess it must be similar to fat people feeling self conscious when they work out, fearing that people will judge them. But, as myself, I never understood that because when I see an overweight person running, I always think, nice! And nothing else.
Seeing this old acquaintance alone has made me realize that absolutely no normal/decent person is going to judge me for going alone in future. (Yes, there’s an inherent and possibly inaccurate assumption in there that I’m a normal/decent person.) So hell, here’s to hitting the gym alone in future.
In other news, I just bought dental floss for the first time. Not that it’s really anything noteworthy, I just think somehow it’s the first time I’ve bought just the floss. It’s not quite as convenient as the ones that come with the picks… More environmentally friendly at least, I would hope.
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It’s Wednesday again. I started this week off with a headache and am ending it with another. Got my second vaccine (hooray!) and had a fever. Chills. Bleh. It wasn’t too horrible though, and feels like it’s getting better already.
Actually, I can’t believe it was just last week that I had that headache. Feels like it’s been ages. Time really is in a warp in my head.
A friend in the US texted me somewhat out of the blue to tell me she went to the gym. (Alone). I think it’s been a collection of signs telling me to just go!
Gia had also suggested that I go. I asked if she felt self-conscious when she went alone. And she essentially said yeah, but push that thought aside. Well, yeah, I guess that’s pretty much how you start going about it.
I dug out an old pair of elephant pants to combat the chills. I’d forgotten just how freaking comfortable they are.
This week has actually been a week with a decent amount of work. Today wasn’t great because there was work to do and the vaccine side effects were hitting, but it was fine in the end.
Friday’s a day off. Can’t wait.
I’d go to the gym this weekend, but the medical advice is to not do any strenuous activities for a week after the vaccine. So, that’s my excuse.
xo,
Amber
