The completely unfiltered diary of a 23-year-old (week 47)
I haven’t bought that lamp yet. Alright. Time to do some online shopping.
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There were too many lamp options. I ended up sticking an open umbrella to the ceiling light (the light has a dome glass cover) with a blob of blu-tack. It looks absolutely ridiculous. But it kind of works. (Like a lampshade). I’m gonna regret this when I’m walking under the light and the umbrella falls on me.
I’m tempted to buy a heatless curling rod though.
Priorities indeed.
And, my umbrella just fell. I slapped on more blu-tack and stuck it back on.
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It fell. Again. And this time the blu-tack is stuck on the ceiling light cover. How disappointing.
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I finally bought a lamp. For twenty bucks.
Hung out with Gia today. Went climbing and got ice cream after, which was nice cos we usually don’t do stuff after climbing (unless we get a meal). And after ice cream we went to the library and she picked up some pretty hefty/serious-looking books.
I hope that lamp won’t be a scam (e.g. totally trash). It should arrive in 1–2 weeks.
It’s another 4-day work week coming up. Damn. It’s definitely not a good sign if I’m already thinking about work this way and dreading the start of the week. To be fair, it’s not severe dread. Just more of a, sigh, gotta work tomorrow.
Bill Gate’s image has taken quite a hit (reportedly) since he divorced Melinda. It’s quite amazing to see how someone’s public image can change so quickly, and how you can craft and tell so many stories from the same facts. It’s all about storytelling and marketing.
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Played mahjong properly for the first time today! It was fun. Hung out with Shelly and her family, which was really wholesome. I’m really grateful. And I think I appreciate Shelly a lot more nowadays. She’s way less complainy, and really forgiving and doesn’t talk bad about people (most of the time). I could learn from her forgiving-ness.
Also called Lauren to celebrate her graduation (again) and her getting her first job! She dropped by to give me some fresh bakes, and I passed her some stuff as a gift. She’s too worried about COVID to hang out in person, so we called. And damn, I’d forgotten how crappy video calling can be, with the lags and crappy video quality. It’s been a while since we’ve had to video call. She’s doing so well though, which she totally 100% deserves, after all the slogging she’s done. I’m so glad she looks genuinely happy.
Hopefully the new job will be great too.
Lauren also mentioned a friend (a girl who I’ve met briefly) had asked if I had a boyfriend, because apparently, I have “the type of personality that makes it seem like she’ll have a boyfriend.” Lol. Well clearly something is off, because I’m as single as single gets. Not that I really mind, but it would be cool to try having a boyfriend. New experiences, y’know.
My friend’s birthday is coming up and it sucks that we can’t meet to celebrate it. We couldn’t celebrate it last year either.
I hope in future, playing mahjong could be a way to meet new friends/hang out with existing ones.
My guy colleague set up a weekly call with me starting last week, for me to ask him any questions I might have, and I was so touched. I *am* so touched. He did it himself, without me even asking. He probably knows I’m an awkward lil shit who needs the help but doesn’t dare to ask. I don’t even have these with my manager. Maybe I should.
And, today was an off day, and he freaking rescheduled the meeting to tomorrow. Without me saying anything. He’s sacrificing his time to teach this useless kid.
Okay, maybe I need more positive self talk. Lol. But yeah, I’m really grateful to him. And his daughter is gonna be born soon! What the heck. Incredible.
I guess if I was a newbie who wasn’t actually interested or invested in the job, these calls would be a drag. But I guess I’m somewhat invested (not extremely — unfortunately it seems I just don’t have the drive to be extremely invested… It’s kinda sad, but I am lazy, and the lack of human touch at work is probably contributing to the lack of motivation). But yeah. Motivated enough to want to make these calls count. To actually learn. Cos there’s so much I don’t know that I don’t know, which can turn out to be quite interesting.
I started listening to Catch and Kill by Ronan Farrow. It’s pretty messed up, and I’ve barely started.
Got some other potential high-value side gigs lined up, if they come through.
My brother is leaving this weekend.
I feel really fat right now. Just had some drinks, and then binged a pack of Pepero. It’s 130 calories for a serving. A serving is half a pack. What bs. There’s no way they expect you to only eat half a pack at once. (And those labelled “sharing packs” irk me. What makes you think I’ll share a pack with someone?)
Really bloated, but I just caught sight of my knee in the mirror and decided it looked disturbingly thin. Nothing quite as disturbing as a fat belly on a skinny person. Alright. Enough with this shit, time to sleep.
xo,
Amber
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