The completely unfiltered diary of a 23-year-old (week 21)
Gaining weight has some real financial impact. It’s not worth it to get fat (if you can help it, of course).
I just realized I can barely fit my previous go-to pair of shorts. Gosh. That is a terrible sign.
Plus, it’s totally not worth it to have to get a whole new wardrobe just because you put on weight. And it’s not good for the environment. Lol. Plus I spend an unjustifiably high amount of money on snacks.
Really gotta watch what I’m eating and snack less… And maybe look into signing up for some kickboxing/swimming classes. Being in a swimsuit definitely makes me super self-conscious about my belly. And it’ll probably be great motivation to eat less junk.
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This whole snacking-out-of-boredom thing needs to stop. It really does come from just having nothing to do, and wanting to do something rather than absolutely nothing.
Which is why, I think, people do lots of mindless activities. Like binge-watching Netflix or YouTube videos, even after it stops being enjoyable. Or scrolling through Instagram or TikTok.
It’s so difficult to just sit and do nothing, and also come to terms with and acknowledging that you are doing absolutely nothing. Those mindless things that we do really are just distractions from realizing that damn, we have nothing to do. Nothing to do with all this time that we have. Which is short, and you want to fill it with “productivity”, and yet somehow, there’s still nothing worth doing to do.
Of course, there’s the other end of the spectrum, where you’re constant busy. And that’s a whole other topic, but my quick two cents on that is that it’s also very easy to get caught up busying yourself with work that seems important, but really isn’t. And that’s dangerous too, because it comes with short-term gratification, but no real satisfaction in the long run. If you’re not careful, that is.
It’s definitely possible to busy yourself with worthwhile things.
Anyway. Back to the topic of snacking, lol. Gotta do something about this!
And also find things that I enjoy doing. Today, when work ended, I just didn’t know what to do. I didn’t want to watch a brainless show. Didn’t want to do something just for the sake of doing something. And as it ended up…there wasn’t really anything I really wanted to do.
Maybe I’m being too harsh on myself. Not everything you do needs to have a purpose. So many people watch brainless shows after work just because.
Well. Once in a while wouldn’t hurt.
Anyway, I’ve been thinking of watching some David Attenborough for a while. Perfect chance. :)
Also, motivation for Spanish has been slowly dwindling… But I’m quite determined not to let that die. We’ll see.
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Watching David Attenborough was a fantastic idea.
What a life.
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Ended up watching binging Indian matchmaking on Netflix… This Netflix thing is truly dangerous. D:
Jeez, I have zero self control. For both binging shows and binging snacks. Bye health.
Had a “normal” hang out with Jessie for the first time we’ve known each other in like a decade. i.e. go to a random food place in a mall and eat, rather than run around in a park doing random shit. That was the first time sitting in a restaurant and eating like normal people. And well, “normal” is way overrated. Hanging out with Jessie was pretty awesome. Good vibes. Reminder to self to say fuck no to normal boring hangouts next time (I was the one who pretty much brought it up so, poor decision), though regardless, it was good.
xo,
Amber
